Fat Tuesday

Happy Fat Tuesday! First time ever that I thought we would celebrate Fat Tuesday with a trip to Chucks for some Cajun food. I could just taste the gumbo, and then; Nic gets the flu. I mean the total upper respiratory flu! Poor kid can't breathe. I am not driving out to Burbank for gumbo - so; that idea is out. Besides that for me it is a total bloated out Fat Tuesday! And tomorrow, Lent begins. Where did the time go? As soon as I find out I will let everyone know. Enjoy the King Cake and let the day begin!

Happy Valentines

Yes, I know I am a day early - but, just in case I miss it - Happy Valentine's Day everyone! When I was single I really dreaded Valentine's Day. My sister and brother always had dates. I always ended up home alone - with my parents and an old movie. I would give alot for those times now.

Have a wonderful day!

A New Day

This picture was taken at Thanksgiving. Dad is looking pretty good. Since then, he has received Communion at home. Today for the first day since then - he went to Church. Our weather is now in the 50's so; most of the snow and the ice is behind us.... for now.... This only tells me one thing - that no matter how bad today is tomorrow is a new day - and life can change in an instant. I do not know why I did not go to that dance last night - I only know that my son and my husband are a little kinder since then. And, if that lasts only for a day I guess the heartache was worth it. And so, to quote Scarlet O'Hara - Tomorrow is another Day!!

Mother Son Dance

It never happened! I waited for this dance. Mother's told me it was wonderful. And, so; tonight was the night. At first I did not want to go. Then, it felt right. It felt nice to get dressed up, and to go out, and to be with my friends. I can honestly say that I was excited. I was ready, everything was perfect except for Nic. The dry cleaner - shrunk his cloths. They were the only dress cloths he had. I felt like Esther in "Meet me in St. Louis" on the night of the Christmas dance, when her date could not get his tuxedo out of the cleaners. Grandpa showed up and saved the day. Unfortunately for me there is no one to "save the day". The day is ruined. I can't honestly remember the last time I got dressed up to go somewhere. It was either to meet a client or to go to a wake - Honestly! For that matter I can't remember the last time that I was treated like a lady. Living with two men - they make you feel like one of them. What is most saddening about tonight is that Andy never said that I looked nice - OR that maybe he should take me out. I am so low. Think I will move to Saint Louis!

Long Weekend

There are long weekends, and then there are LONG weekends. It started with a trip on Friday to Bass Pro, to get Andy's birthday presents. A cast iron skillet was the big gift. He loves to cook and this was perfect - since receiving it Sunday he has used it twice and today is only Tuesday. Saturday was the celebration of his and Sherri's birthday at my Mom & Dad's house. I took pictures - and they did not turn out! Disappointing! Sunday we went out to eat with Andy's Mom & her friend. Lithuanian food - never my first choice - but always good and very FILLING! Later, came the Superbowl - exciting - and more eating!!!

On to yesterday and today - yesterday uneventful - just Monday never great but always there. And, then on to today. I feel a sense of sadness in me today. A friend of mine lost her Dad. She called during Christmas to tell me - but I was so caught up in myself and my own depression that I could not see to call her back. I spoke to her today - sick and tired of it all being about me and my menopause. I used to be a friend - for that matter I used to have friends! It is time to reconnect with me again. I used to be creative - I want it back! I want desperately to be a stay at home mom. But, our lives such as they are, could never survive without my income, they can barely survive now. So, I need to look inside - find myself again and start to be the creative caring person that I once was - it is never too late.................................

By the way that was not Andy's cake - that picture turned out bad too!!